Friday, October 22, 2010

Losing Hope is where all my dreams lay

Fuck dreams. Let them go. This isn't a rant because I didn't make it. This is the truth dreams don't matter. Embrace who you are in the moment in the here and now and not who you one day won't be. You won't make it to the NBA, your not going to be a writer, or a poet, or anything "special" Fuck it I hate to be the one to break it to you but your really not even that different. I know it stings a little bit dont it. Well its the truth and you know what its ok. Your normal and your alive isn't that enough. Why do we put this insane pressure on ourselves to have this crazy existence when certain things just aren't possible. Don't be disappointed in the things that will never happen. Embrace being a "loser" a "dropout" a "failure" its so freeing. Don't have expectations just do.


willowchronicles said...

I've been saying this forever... but deep down inside-because I know my potential-part of me can't let a glimmer of hope remain that some day I may be more than I am.

CabinCrazyOne (cc1) said...

How can you say you're looking for peace of mind? Everything you've written here is a grand exorcise in maintaining a self destructive attitude.

willowchronicles said...

Its not self destructive i feel its freedom from expectations. Since we are little we are told that we can be anything we want, if we want it bad enough and work hard enough and are determined it can be ours. Well the truth is life doesn't work out that way. Be who you are and strive to be better than who you were yesterday but we shouldn't feel like failures or nobody's if we don't become something in our imagination. In our dreams we catch every break, every joke is timely and witty, every person we meet is pleased to have met us, we are doing something we love and helping those around us. But its just not true. Dreams have left me broken and with a bitter taste in my mouth. So no more will I lament over what never was nor will ever be. Give me the truth and I will forge my happiness with what remains.