Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Saturday, November 23, 2013
Tuesday, September 10, 2013
Tuesday, August 13, 2013
I'm that cliche person right now... Sitting in a coffee shop. Looking SOOOOOOO hip with my macbook. And even cooler because I'm actually drinking COFFEE. I've typed about 32 beginnings to this. You know how that goes. When you're "in the mood to write" but you sit down and nothing crosses your mind to put down. One sentence... backspace backspace backspace. "No, this is going on a blog... I certainly have to sound much cooler than I appear to be right now." You know, I'm sitting here and I can't write because I'm so concerned with what everyone else thinks I'm up to here. Do they think I'm a student? Or some poor legal secretary doing work after hours just to keep up with the pricks at the office who are always on my back? Or am I some brooding artist desperately trying to cultivate my "big break" piece?? If I could read minds... I'd NEVER GET ANYTHING DONE. Who am I really? It's so unimportant and pedestrian you'd cut me off mid sentence--"ok, I get it, you're average, at best. So is your job." You'd be right. I have somehow landed a job that pays me more than I'm worth, and essentially, I have NO idea what I'm doing. I can go through the motions and mechanically complete the work expected of me, but please don't ask me why I'm doing what I'm doing. More importantly... back to the coffeehouse people. Look at me, wonder what I'm doing. Wonder if I'm important. WISH YOU KNEW. Most of what everyone does on a day to day basis in the public eye is meticulously orchestrated in their minds to create an appearance far more important than the reality of it.
Hey guys... I was looking through all the old posts. There's a plethora of drafts just hangin around in there... What are your thoughts on either going back and finishing your own, or would you mind if others went through and put their own spin on the rest of it??? I don't want to offend anyone by taking over a draft-but some of them have been sitting there for years and are a great jumping off point.
Saturday, May 25, 2013
I've gone through so many stages in life, already. Loved, love lost, love found again. Never in a million years did I think this is what I would become. Most people say that when they are ashamed or disappointed; but not me. I am incredibly proud and relieved that I have exceeded the world's expectations in my potential. I grew up as part of a struggling low-middle class family. I never had nearly as much as others and was perfectly okay with that. I did, however, vow that one day my children would never feel the struggles of keeping the lights on and keeping food on the table. At one point in my life I became withdrawn, dropped out of college, and contemplated the world beyond our living world. I took solace in the company I had there with me. I wasn't looking beyond my own little world. I wasn't thinking about the big picture. I fell in love with moments constantly and fell hard out of them when I realized they were only moments. Today I am 26 years old. I am engaged. I own a home. I have visible tattoos and dyed blonde hair. I am a woman. I am an Operations Manager for a conservative fortune 500 company and make $95K a year. I am everything you would not expect me to be by looking at me and that makes me happy. I have risen above the adversity of being a woman in the corporate world. Being tattooed in the corporate world. I come home every day to my artistic, urban fiance who is my polar opposite and literally can't picture a life in which I would be any happier. I can't say I have always made the best decisions in life. But I am certainly proud that both the good and bad decisions have led me here. I am excited for whats in store for me next. I love this adventure. I will continue to live by the virtue of AAA. Awareness, Attitude, and Authenticity...... and maybe a fourth A - AWESOMENESS.
Saturday, May 4, 2013
It seems like it took 10 years longer for the leaves to bud on the trees but alas, hints of green begin to tease me. Summer fruit bouquet gently misted in the air. Ahhh... this is what I've longed for. Every thing in order, in it's place; not just the books on the shelves. My mind is finally so free. The consumption of wonder and why no longer pulls me away from the reality I live. It's just so beautiful.