Tuesday, December 31, 2013

End of the year poop

With the end of 2013 fast-approaching, social media is being flooded with "good riddance 2013" - "2013 sucked" - "2014 is gonna be my year" - "I'm gonna kick 2014's ass!" and so on, and so on, ad nauseam. Ironically... if you scrolled back far enough to the end of 2012-it was full of all the same sentiments... "F 2012, bring it on 2013!!" Really folks??? I mean-let's be real here; there's 365 days in a year, assuming it's not a leap, the likelihood of going an entire year without something "bad" happening and therefore rendering your year "the suckiest year EVVEEERRRRR" is so slim that it's not even worth entertaining the thought. This is life. Welcome to it. After the age of-oh let's say... 11? 12? life is going to consistently throw things your way that may not be ideal... but instead are REAL. Yes, you'll have your heart broken-most likely more than once (and if you're my friend on FB, you'll probably have your heart broken approximately 32 times in any given year. Really guys??? Stop it. Be in a relationship-or don't. And for the love of my news feed... dating someone for 2 weeks does not constitute changing your relationship status on FB, you're only going to be changing it back in a week when "he's such an ass hole" or "she's a filthy whore"). I'll keep this cynicism short and sweet. Here's to 2013... a year which brought many things my way--- *Another priceless year spent with the most amazing woman on this planet (my mom, of course)*A new job (yay!)*Another wonderful nephew (awww) *Another year spent with my counterpart (sigh/swoon/whatev the girls do these days) *Ended friendships (yep... 2 of them) that were over a decade long (yeah, fuck you too)* A new sister-in-law (Shoulder Shrugs)*Lost some family members to old age/cancer/etc (RIP Aunt Alice & Virginia) And 2013 leaves me with no different feeling than any other year. It was quick, it was fun, it was sad at times, and now it's gone. Cheer's to 2014!!! hopefully bringing many more of life's hysterical conundrums, health for all (especially mom). My only wish is that the days slow down, and I can put on rose-colored glasses and enjoy each day for what it's worth-whether it be good, bad, or indifferent. May I be always compassionate, understanding, and loving to all deserving. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!

Saturday, November 23, 2013

Sometimes, I miss my friend.

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

love you more pookie

Is there always one person that loves more in a realtionship???

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

a work in progress

I'm that cliche person right now... Sitting in a coffee shop. Looking SOOOOOOO hip with my macbook. And even cooler because I'm actually drinking COFFEE. I've typed about 32 beginnings to this. You know how that goes. When you're "in the mood to write" but you sit down and nothing crosses your mind to put down. One sentence... backspace backspace backspace. "No, this is going on a blog... I certainly have to sound much cooler than I appear to be right now." You know, I'm sitting here and I can't write because I'm so concerned with what everyone else thinks I'm up to here. Do they think I'm a student? Or some poor legal secretary doing work after hours just to keep up with the pricks at the office who are always on my back? Or am I some brooding artist desperately trying to cultivate my "big break" piece?? If I could read minds... I'd NEVER GET ANYTHING DONE. Who am I really? It's so unimportant and pedestrian you'd cut me off mid sentence--"ok, I get it, you're average, at best. So is your job." You'd be right. I have somehow landed a job that pays me more than I'm worth, and essentially, I have NO idea what I'm doing. I can go through the motions and mechanically complete the work expected of me, but please don't ask me why I'm doing what I'm doing. More importantly... back to the coffeehouse people. Look at me, wonder what I'm doing. Wonder if I'm important. WISH YOU KNEW. Most of what everyone does on a day to day basis in the public eye is meticulously orchestrated in their minds to create an appearance far more important than the reality of it.

Need some input here...

Hey guys... I was looking through all the old posts. There's a plethora of drafts just hangin around in there... What are your thoughts on either going back and finishing your own, or would you mind if others went through and put their own spin on the rest of it??? I don't want to offend anyone by taking over a draft-but some of them have been sitting there for years and are a great jumping off point.

Saturday, May 25, 2013


I've gone through so many stages in life, already. Loved, love lost, love found again. Never in a million years did I think this is what I would become. Most people say that when they are ashamed or disappointed; but not me. I am incredibly proud and relieved that I have exceeded the world's expectations in my potential. I grew up as part of a struggling low-middle class family. I never had nearly as much as others and was perfectly okay with that. I did, however, vow that one day my children would never feel the struggles of keeping the lights on and keeping food on the table. At one point in my life I became withdrawn, dropped out of college, and contemplated the world beyond our living world. I took solace in the company I had there with me. I wasn't looking beyond my own little world. I wasn't thinking about the big picture. I fell in love with moments constantly and fell hard out of them when I realized they were only moments. Today I am 26 years old. I am engaged. I own a home. I have visible tattoos and dyed blonde hair. I am a woman. I am an Operations Manager for a conservative fortune 500 company and make $95K a year. I am everything you would not expect me to be by looking at me and that makes me happy. I have risen above the adversity of being a woman in the corporate world. Being tattooed in the corporate world. I come home every day to my artistic, urban fiance who is my polar opposite and literally can't picture a life in which I would be any happier. I can't say I have always made the best decisions in life. But I am certainly proud that both the good and bad decisions have led me here. I am excited for whats in store for me next. I love this adventure. I will continue to live by the virtue of AAA. Awareness, Attitude, and Authenticity...... and maybe a fourth A - AWESOMENESS.

Saturday, May 4, 2013

A Breath of Fresh Air

It seems like it took 10 years longer for the leaves to bud on the trees but alas, hints of green begin to tease me. Summer fruit bouquet gently misted in the air. Ahhh... this is what I've longed for. Every thing in order, in it's place; not just the books on the shelves. My mind is finally so free. The consumption of wonder and why no longer pulls me away from the reality I live. It's just so beautiful.