self-mutilation

I internalize all my fears
all of my doubts
all of these years.

Now buried far beneath
the layers of insecurities
becoming my inner demons.

I can't show you who I am
Who I really want to be
Because I'm hidden.

Sealed up tight
only for me to know.

Sometimes I slip
and a light so piercing and bright
will shine through my layers.

This light tears through me
in the most horryfing way
while my layer upon layer of inner demons
grab and gnarl to keep it in.

For you to see this one small piece
I suffer immeasurable pain.

So take that sliver of me
and cherish it-
it pained me to release.